thankgiving weekend.

So the lovely thanksgiving weekend is now wrapping up, we also celebrated my mum's forty eighth birthday today! It's been a great weekend full of family and food, I really have so many things to be thankful for. :) One thing that has not been good this weekend, for me anyways, is the weather! For everyone else it was beautiful we had weather around 20 degrees+ the whole weekend...ya. I love fall to death, mentioned this before, but I just really want to wear my sweaters and knits and scarfs! I think it is ridiculous if you are going to get your Thankgiving veggies from the stalls and you are sweating your face off in jeans and a long sleeve shirt. :( I wasn't happy...

That is why actually I want to write this post, an inspiration for a rainy day on a monday! Because I just want it to be fall! This week is all supposed to be sunny until wednesday and then rain thursday and friday. Let's hope for some windchill tomorrow and wednesday, but here we go onto my inspiration lately:

(I love this little girl! She is so cute and I can so imagine dressing my little girl in this before telling her to go play outside!)

(Beautiful house! I love how the fall decorations are kept elegant with a simple fall wreath on the door and the pumpkins leading up the steps! The unraked leaves add a little touch too.)

(Such a beautiful shot of the woods during fall, I love the up close colourful leaves and how you can just make out some people in the background.)

(I love the "decorations" on this house too, with the colourful leaves adorning the sides of the house and chimney anything more then the simple wreath on the door would be too much!)

(I love how the neutral colour-sceme full of different textures and patterns just screams fall, I love the shelving around the fireplace and the basket they are using to hold the wood, such a neat concept! I wish I was there...)

(I love every. single. concept in this outfit! I love the HUGE oversized cardigan and want it. I have been loving a white collar under any cardigan lately and have been wanting on myself and the burnt orange pants are a great way to add that fall trend to an outfit, before this I hadn't seen it done in a way I liked!)

(This reminds me of the scarf I just finished knitting so of course I had to add it... Again, I love this gray cable-knit cardi and want it!)

(This looks so cozy! I really want to knit myself a blanket like this and have been toying with the idea since June when I learned how to knit! Again the sweater looks so cozy and I love the added affect of the mug in hand. Wish I was in this situation in front of a firplace with the wind howling outside)

(Isn't this kitty just adorable!!! I love him he looks so cute...aww, now I gotta go cuddle with my little darlings.)

So I have deduced by making this post that 1- The weather better get colder soon, much to my mother's chagrin, 2- I want to start knitting a huge, cozy blanket and a pullover sweater (both have been on my maybe list but now it's official), & 3- I must find more money to go by more cardigans...oh dear.

On a side note I finished Angels and Demons today, LOVED the book, it took so many 180's, I can see myself reading this book again and again and again for years to come and still finding knew things. It was such a good book a breezed through it in two days, I feel I could have finished sooner but it included some difficult language, very mathematical that sometimes you had to read twice.

heatwave-maritime style.

So I-as well as everyone who pays attention to the news-has been hearing about the heatwave that was all the rage over in the UK for the past week or so. I never thought it would get here...granted it has only been one day and I suspect it won't last for much longer than two days but still! It's October! I am someone who l-o-v-e-s fall. Fall and winter are easily my favorite seasons by far for many reasons but I won't get into that now.

I wasso excited that it was finally October and the temperature dropped. I put the fleece sheets on my bed, have been lighting all my candles, bought a new winter coat and I even started knitting a chunky dark grey scarf. So you can imagine my dismay that when I finally finish my scarf...we have 24 degree weather celcius outside. I mean come one Mother Nature! I am sure that many people are beyond ecstatic with the news of this small heatwave but I just can't find it in me. :(

Alright-rant over. Now it's time for me to do something with my day! Yesterday was my true day off during which I did absolutely nothing but surf the web and knit. Today however I have some serious making up to do because of that slack day. I have four projects I have to work on and also I have to make a trip to the mall to pick up my wonderful mummy some birthday presents!

four day weekends FTW and sad ramblings

Loving this whole feeling that even though tomorrow is a Friday, I will not be getting up! Unfortunately I have a shit load of homework to do over the weekend but regardless! Tomorrow, me and my bed will be catching up on some lost time.

This long weekend is so wonderful, I am over the moon. Wow...two days off of school after one month in and this is what happens to me! Sad... It's just...so stressful! Damn grade eleven, next year better be less stressful, everyone always says that grade eleven is the hardest year and so far I agree.

I think all of this stress has been affecting what little sanity that I had left. I swear I can be almost sobbing one hour to skipping down the store aisles singing "White and Nerdy" the next. All of this work and pressure has been messing with my brain! I am not even the same at swim, it seems this week that I can't even get through one practice with breaking down. Of course I break down when I have be goggles on and am swimming so no one can see but it has happened more then a few times just this week, actually to be specific it has happened at every practice I went to this week. Three.

I don't know what is wrong with me but I feel as if I am not good enough and I will never be good enough. Whenever Coach critiques one of my strokes or tells me to do say 200 IM pull I find myself thinking some very rude things about telling him where to go, how to get there and what to do. It's terrible! Swimming has, unfortunately, become more of a habit that a want lately. It seems as if I am just going to the pool and jumping in because it is expected of me rather than I actually want to go there, improve and get a good work out in. And this has for sure been affecting my strokes and my attitudes towards swimming in general along with my whole swim team.

For example, today when it was announced that out first meet would be against another regional high school sometime next week or the week after my gut didn't clench in anticipation or exhileration. No, instead I just felt dread and thought, I don't, won't and can't do this. I have lost the thrill of swimming, instead it just feels bland and I don't even want to.

I have no clue what I will do, most likely, scratch that, most definitely I will suck it the fuck up and swim anyways. Just because I don't want to be known as the-girl-who-quit-the-swim-team-and-let-the-whole-team-down. Once again, I will put my feelings in the back seat and shut up. Jesus, what happened to all that optimism I had at the start of this post about four day weekends?

physics tests, english essays & geometry assignments

Homework, homework, homework! Thank gods that I have a four day weekend the weekend. I forsee books, candles and tea in my near future, with long mornings in bed and perhaps some blogging? In an ideal world that is all that I would do all weekend but I think aiming for a Friday just like that seems perfect and reasonable.

Life lately has just been one huge ordeal and I have been so close on the edge of breaking down recently that I am hoping that this weekend will do me some good. It's time to just relax, unwind and forget about the stress I call life for one day.

After that it can be back to homework as usual. Thankfully after studying for a combined many, many hours I have got my Physics test out of the way this morning, which was a huge load off of my shoulders. I study enough that I know all the material but there is nothing I can do to get rid of how nervous I get right before a test! But that's over with now and there is nothing more I can do so I will not stress out about how I did, woo hoo!

Today I was on a roll because after stressing out for a week about my grade on my english essay I just re-calculated my mark and figured out that I had in fact recieved an 85% and not a 72%!! That means that I don't have to re-write the whole essay!

I swear, it finally feels as if the universe has decided, "Alright, we put a lot onto Miss Anna's shoulders lately so we will just back off for the time being!" The last few days have been days from Hell and I can't even fully explain why! I just know that know I got a better mark on my english essay and that I have a really easy level one math project due in two weeks time! Hullo taking pictures of random shapes and putting them in some form of presentation, scrapbook.

I really hope that this mood continues on into tomorrow, I could do with one more good day to start the weekend off.

october?!?

Wow, I can't believe October is here already. I took a...long...break from this blog over the summer and at the time that was what was right for me. Some days I felt like oh I should go and write something down but the feeling would soon pass. But here I am again just because I was reading over the last few entries and they really made me quite happy.

I started school almost a month ago now and really the month has flown. Grade eleven is a lot harder then I initially thought but mostly I am loving it. There has been a few bumps along the way; like the fact that I have Physics this year and the class I was most excited for, Law, turned out to be dud. Yet I am loving the challenge and it just make me think of how I only have one more year and then it is off on my own to university. A scary, yet very exciting, thought.

Right now I am beyond tired and just feel like curling up under my warm, fuzzy sheets so I will finish this post up. I really don't have anything else to talk about, well I suppose I do but nothing that I feel like elaborating on. I am officially going to Europe-Italy & Spain-next year. I learned how to knit over the summer, my great-grammie Goodine taught me and I am loving it! The only real reason I mention this is because I bought some new yarn tonight a thick. fuzzy, dark gray colour and already started making a new scarf, so excited to finish that! I also bought a pile of new books over the summer...and I swear I haven't finished more than 10. School has been taking up most of my time!!

With that I really am off, time to turn off the computer and blow out the candles, all that the late, late time of nine o'clock! Say whhaatt? Yes, I have been going to bed at embarrassingly early times since school began, actually nine is on the later half. My only comment is, why did I ever stop going to bed early!?! I love it! <3

summer vacations

Summer is well under way and just thought of waking up at 7AM five times a week in just seven weeks makes me shudder! It's crazy to think that summer is almost halfway over and I haven't really gone anywhere! That is always how my summer's go, with the exception of Summer 2010 when I went away at the start of July. Usually however I stick around town doing nothing really important until the end of July and then August is usually crammed full of things I want to get down before school starts. Crazy but that's me.

This year has been a little different as I am not sure if I am going to have a job but one vacation is set in stone whether I get the job or not. That vacation is creeping up in two weeks time and even though I won't even be leaving the province it has to be, hands down, the highlight of my summer. I will be getting to see Rebecca again!! I am beyond excited for this encounter, I feel as if a part of my family is missing! I lived with her for 6 months, I don't even want to think about how far away the next time I will be seeing her after this is... But you have to focus on the good, I am so excited to see her and her aunt Solange again. I can't even think of words to express how happy and excited I am, ecstatic maybe? I will be travelling to the North of NB a couple of days before their arrival which gives me time to spend time with my grammie and see her new place, then I will be meeting up with them and we will travel down the province with some stops along the way showing them the beautiful province of New Brunswick. Neither of them has really explored it and it is Solange's first time ever so I am hoping it will be enjoyable! Then they will drop me off, spend a day in my town and then be on their way. It is going to be terrible to have to say good-bye yet again to Reb! :(

Then, job permitting my friend Shantel and I have a shopping trip down to New Hampshire planned which I am looking forward to because it will be a great place to get some school clothes shopping done but if I get the shop I will have to back out of it, which I hope I don't have to do but we'll see. I have no problem cancelling a simple shopping trip with someone who I can see whenever and see every day at school. But my trip with Rebecca, no way in hell I am cancelling that. I would even go so far as to say that I will decline the job if I get it if I cannot get the time. This is so important to me that it is a necessity. Hopefully it won't come to that!

tea, candles and kittens

The weather where I live has been gorgeous recently, and many days have been spent outdoors at the park or beach. But after being outside all the time, constantly out and about under the sun it is kind of relaxing for that one over cast day when you can just stay in bed still in your pj's all day. I am probably one of the very few people who feel this way but I need that day every now and then when I light some nice smelling candles, make myself a cup of tea and busy myself in a magazine or on the computer. It's kind of theraputic for me and of course my cats will eventually slink into my room and hop onto my bed where they will curl into a ball and be fast asleep in five seconds flat. Lucky buggers.

The other evening I did something that I kind of hope will become a weekly tradition. I am one of the ones who admits that she spends way to much time on the computer. Even if I visit all of my daily websites and do all that I deem necessary on the computer I will continue to stay on and mindlessly surf the interwebz until before I know it, hours have passed. I will be the first to admit that it's quite sad and pathetic. That's why the other evening I shut down my laptop, turned off the WiFi on my iPod, ignored my phone, lit up a wide variety of candles and grabbed a stack of old magazines, slowly working my way through them. It was in fact one of the most peaceful evenings I had in awhile and I enjoyed it a lot more that an evening spend staring at the screen of a computer yet again. Before I knew it my most irratible kitty Survivor, who isn't a kitty in any sense of the word being the eldest of my three babies and the big, bad, king of the castle I call home, jumped up onto my bed and curled up on my bed and quickly fell asleep where he remained all night and until 10AM the next morning.

That in itself was lovely just because know that he is older Survivor doesn't like to cuddle very much and rarely sleeps with me preferring to sleep on weird hard places like the telephone book or the table. When I woke up the next morning all three of my kitties had surrounded me and were all asleep. All in all, it was lovely and I feel that more evenings without technology are in my future.