The last two nights I have been having the strangest dreams. Whenever I wake up I feel disoriented and not sure where the line between reality and fake lies. I have had the typical dreams about flying, which when you wake up seem absurd and you can laugh them off. The dreams that have been staying with me however are the ones that use my past against me and almost seem taunting.
I've had dreams where I am back together with my ex-boyfriend and everything is happy again. Where he wants to be with me and we are the couple that meshes together perfectly. Then last night I had a dream where Nicheal and I were together, having a sleepover and generally being best friends again. I should've known it was fake though, she was exactly how I remember her, not how she is today; blonde, frizzy hair and slightly crooked teeth.
I feel like these dreams are almost torturous, showing me what "could-have-been" but it's not, it didn't happen. So, when I have to wake up and face the reality after what seems to be a glimpse into the future it hurts all over again. I know it won't happen but my damn subconscious seems to enjoy teasing me.
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