The horizon seems promising.

The last few days I have felt antsy, like there is something I should be doing but I'm not (laundry excluded of course). Today, around three, I had that feeling again. I was laying down on my bed and I just felt like there was something that I had to be out doing. I literally had to remind myself that it was summer, I had nothing planned, and I didn't feel good; I was staying in that bed.

Maybe I've felt this way because I have been planning, planning, planning lately. I really wanted to make it to Ottawa this summer and stay on the campus but unfortunately, it doesn't seem like that will be happening. But somehow, I have just enough money in my bank account(s) to buy a train ticket to Quebec and still have money left over to get Spencer fixed. I am not sure how exactly it worked out but I am happy none-the-less.

I am overjoyed at the prospect of seeing Rebecca in a few days but am no where near prepared. The ticket hasn't even been bought yet. I am unsure of what to bring with me, I will only be gone the weekend so unfortunately it is a short visit. But I am so excited to travel by train. It might end up a disaster being squeezed next to stinky, old men for 12 hours but the hassle is half the fun of the travel.

The reason I am fighting so hard for this trip to Quebec is because this will be my last "vacation" for awhile. After I come back I will be spending the last dredges of my spare change on Spencer before packing back up and moving up North for the rest of the summer. Yup...up North, to where my grammies live. I really am excited, it seems like an adventure in itself. I have always wanted to do something like this and I feel it is just what I need right now with what has been going on. And then next summer will be full of the hassle of trying to move and settle into a new town.

Even though the prospect of going broke after buying one train ticket and paying a vet's bill makes me cringe I know that I won't regret it. Yes, I need to save money for university but I know I would regret it more if I didn't do these things. Money is meant to be spent, life is meant to be lived.