Friday, December 31, 2010
Again!?
So going right into my blogging story then. It all started in July. When I was in BC on Rabbit Island. A lot of things commenced there...in theory. I had a lot of revelations there which in turn lead to a lot of changes and new things happening. Before I was on Rabbit Island I was feeling very discouraged about my work, very uninspired. However while I was on Rabbit Island one night at dinner (we ended up having supper very late there both nights I stayed) someone, me or my dad, I forget, let slip that I wanted to be an author. That made for an abrupt subject change, everyone was asking me questions and was GENUINELY interested! It was great! It was so powerful that suddenly I felt powerful! As if I could write anything and it was become a hit! It was these five strangers (six later that evening) who believed in me. That's what I felt, I didn't get any questioning to if my work was good, no scolding that an author was not a sensible career, disbelief. None of that which I had recieved back home from my family! There was one man there named Bruce who even swapped plot ideas with me! We talked about writing a mystery, something I was, and still am, scared to write because I don't believe I am smart enoughg to write a captivating, secretive, mystery plot, but at that moment I could have written one! That is what support does to you, I went from shy and embarassed about my dreams being revealed to suddenly telling everyone at the table about the stories I have written! It was truly a great memory.
However that does not explain why I started blogging, that came later that night while I was talking to an inspiring woman named Michelle (for privacy reasons I will not give her full name). She used to be a teacher but now spends her days living in Panama with a MONKEY. She was very inspiring, her and I sat down on the couch and talked for an hour, at least, about my writing! She gave me great advice about which genre I should persue and how I should go about it. She listed off authors I had never heard of and told me I needed to read their material! Before we parted that night we swapped email addresses but not before she gave me one more piece of advice on how to get myself out there. BLOGGING! So that is how I got on here but of course I am going to ram le on for another five minutes about other stuff.
It was those people on the island, Dave, Osa, Dave Two, Bruce, his brother and ESPECIALLY Michelle, who helped me get back into my writing spirit. I don't know if I still would be writing if it wasn't for their advice. I was at a point where I really had given up hope, after I had finally told everyone I wanted to be an author (which took almost a year) all anything anybody told me was negative! They told me I would never make it and should rethink things. I tried to stay positive, I did. Writing was what I wanted to do and I was still hoping that my family would see and accept that! But the last straw was when I saw my grandmothers face slip from a beaming smile to a grimace when I told her I wanted to write. That was it, I was hurt immensely and it wasn't until I was on the island that I regained all the courage my family had destroyed. So now I have the attitude that I am writing for myself and o my myself. I am goi g to do what makes me happy, not what makes my family happy. Sure I still have my doubts but for the most part, thanks to the wonderful people on Rabbit Island I am writing and confident again!
So that's my ramble of the week! Happy new years!
Memo to self-- Backdoor of Midnight was an amazing book! Read more by Elizabeth Chandler.
Goodbye 2010.
Tuesday, December 28, 2010
Yup pretty sure I am back.
This is something I wrote...quite awhile ago I think it's still very relevant to my life and I find myself relating to it more and more. "People tell you that in life there are going to be hard choices. They tell us that there are going to be ups and downs but not to worry because these difficult times will make us who we are. Well I would like to tell then that although that all sounds great on paper, in the real world sometimes it can be fucking hard. You can't always see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes it just seems easier to sit down and say "Fuck you, I have had enough right now." Just something I wrote up when I was really mad at the whole world. Reminds me of my favorite saying "How can I be sure that the light at the end of the tunnel isn't just another train?"
Looking back through the books I have kept over the past year I am seeing all of these stories and brainstorms that are really good but I never persued! Why?!? It's so weird I read the brainstorms and suddenly my brain is running. I could do this or that. Make the character do that or have this and then I just want to write! I really need to go back over everything I started but didn't finish and well...FINISH it! New year, new resolutions, new beginnings, new ME. Right? So right here, right now I am going to make my new years resolution to myself;I will write everytime I am bored. Everytime an idea pops in my head I will write down even if it is ridiculous sounding! How am I supposed to get any better if I don't practice, practice, practice and write, write, write! I won't, plain and simple. So this will be my reminder to do just that!
I'm back?
Saturday, September 18, 2010
Just Another Pointless Post.
What is with my and these random pointless things? I am just putting off the inevitable by browsing the web and writing this post...
Sigh, time for me to get off my derriere and go find my pen so I can finish the first draft of my paper then move onto studying...
Bye for now.
Friday, September 10, 2010
The Time Will Come For Us To Finally Win.
Day 11- What's in your makeup bag?
Alright well, when I am at my house my makeup doesn't go into a bag, it is just in this bin thing! :P But when I do leave my house I usually bring; mascara, eyeliner, lipgloss, the lipstick I am wearing and a coverup. Basically just what I wear that day.
Day 10- A photo of our favorite place to eat.
Alright so I just copy and paste this off of a site and now it is saying "our favorite place to eat"? I think it's time I stop doing this stupid thing...it is making NO sense and I don't really get to write a lot about the questions, just little things like a paragraph...
Day 9- A photo of the last item you purchased.
Uhm well the last item I purchased was a muffin and chocolate milk at lunch the other day so I can't really show ya a picture of that...
Okay well I am going to say with it, just 'cause I don't want to fail at this. :P
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Music makes the world go 'round.
So for Day 8 the task is...
Day 8 - A song to match your mood.
Uhm, a song to match my mood, my mood right now is soooo tired! But I suppose that I will go with the whole new school year, new hair, new start kind of feel and say Fifteen-Taylor Swift? Bahaha, that is te only song I know about starting school but that's about your freshman year and I'm in my sophomore! Whatever, I'm tired and cannot think more then that. Some songs that I am really diggin' now is the Punk Goes Pop albums! They are awesome, probably my fav out of all of them is When I Grow up covered by Mayday parade! :D
Anywho, I have to jet, :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
Taking a Break!
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Last one for the night! Woot.
Day 6 - A photo of an animal you'd love to keep as a pet.
Man, what is with all this ones that ask for photos! Sheesh.
Haha, joking, those actually are my pets. My little babies, the one in the back is Survivor and I've had him since gosh knows when, almost ten years now! He is truly my little man and had stuck with me through everything, not that he had much of a choice, I mean I do control his food. ;) MUAHAHA.
Ahem...anyways, the black and white one closer to the front is Oreo, I've had this gem for just over a year. She is a lot more hyper then I remember Survivor being, anyways, I love her to death, she is perfect to cuddle with now that Survivor thinks he is too good to cuddle with me. Anyways, I really get into it when I talk about my pets, the truth is, if given the choice, I don't know what animal I would like to keep as a pet. Maybe I might own a lab again, I love labs, I had three growing up but when I moved into the city we had to give them away. I would love to own a horse! To be able to run free, *sigh* I love animals so I'll take one of everything! :)
Another one. :)
Alright, so that ones not too bad! Sucess! I just look a little odd...and not smiling, but trust me, if you could see the other options you would be cringing, I know I was! I looked so young and weird back then, two years really makes a difference...more then we even realize.
My Apologies!
Thursday, September 2, 2010
...Hi :)
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Day Two. :)
So this isn't exactly what I ate today, obviously I got this off the internet. But I did eat at Subway today, twice actually. I had Subway for lunch and supper. It was very delicious.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
30 Day Blog Challenge.
Day One - A photo of yourself and a description of how your day was.
So this is the most recent picture I have on my computer! It was the day after I dyed my hair brown (previously it was blonde!) so this was taken on Sunday. Now, how was my day. My day was very good actually, I got a lot done! I went out and bought all of my school books so I have them all organized and ready for school. Which is exactly one week...but that is another matter all together! So yes, I think I had a very good day, I spent the morning and some of the afternoon with my little sister and we actually got along so no complaints there! Then I did my shopping and when I got home me and my dad watched a movie together. Now that I am typing out what I did today it actually doesn't sound as if I did that much, but the books piled high beside my bed beg to differ! I am actually getting a little excited about starting a new school year! It's going to be different classes, I have different hair, a different attiude. This year will definitely be different and I cannot wait if I'm being honest! I will be working very hard this year, I have a very full course! Then I will be moving in January! Oh life, I cannot wait. Well, I guess my ramble about my day turned into a ramble about the future? Eh, the point of this blog was just to give me an outlet to write about the most random things and life. :)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Shamefully... Degrassi Again!
Eli: I gotta go, I have a french exam.
Clare: Oh you passed.
Clare: Or maybe you could lie low with your girlfriend?
Eli: Yeah, girlfriend.
Okay so unfortunately I am writing this WHILE I am watching it so I keep writing paragraphs but then having to backspace the whole thing because something else happens that contridicts what I was saying!
Okay the show is now over. I think I am safe to write what I want now. I have caught up with the past two episodes and all I can really say is...holy crap. There are only two episodes left...how they are going to wrap this up I do not know, but I know it is going to be good. Eli and Clare FINALLY became a couple in this episode but now I think they are broken up? 'Cause Clare is going to the dance with Fitz, who is practically Eli and Adam's worst enemy. Then! The episode ended with Drew, who is dating Alli, going into the boiler room with Bianca! Drama-rama-rama!
Okay, so I will stop my ramble about Degrassi because I really don't want to turn this blog into me talking about T.V.! So I think I will keep this post short and sweet and I'll update later or tomorrow with something more exciting!
Monday, August 23, 2010
DEGRASSI.
I know I am a little late on this, but I JUST watched the promo for the final week (this week) and now I'm glad that I did wait because if I had watched that any earlier I think I would have absolutely DIED. Okay, that was a long sentence with a lot of connecting words...but only one thing is running hrough my mind right now as I continue hyperventilating and shaking; ELIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII!!!!
So maybe my addiction with this show is unhealthy but add on the fact that in the promo Eli gets a KNIFE drawn on him in a deserted hallway, with Clare watching, by Fitz it looks like, at least I assume it's Fitz. I mean he definitely has a grudge against Eli with Eli making him the whole fake I.D. with a arsonist name on it and everything. ANYWAYS, I missed tonight's episode too!!!
So basically this is how my past ten minutes have gone:
10:20- Anna was innocently reading her daily dose of FanFiction which happened to be about Eclare when she saw that floorplanhobo had left an author's note saying: "... I am extremely amused at the fact that I had this chapter outlined way before the promo for the season finale came out. Are you stealing my ideas, Degrassi? ;)" What? Intrigued Anna realized that she had never watched the Degrassi season finale promo. So Anna decided to hop on over to her beloved YouTube to watch said promo.
10:24- Anna finishes watching said promo and starts hyperventilating, trying to calm down by taking deep breaths and finally when she calms down enough to take deep, calming breaths she realized that her hands were shaking uncontrollably. All I could could make out was Eli, Eli, Eli, NO! Because said promo, ends with Eli against a door, and the guy with the knife, let's just call him Fitz for kicks, well "Fitz" is blocking him. So "Fitz" has Eli backed into a corner!!!! With a knife in his hand! :( :( :( :(
10:26- Anna realizes that she missed tonight's episode of Degrassi and starts flipping out all over again!
10:28- You could find Anna on muchmusic.com to see if they have the episode up yet, which of course they don't!
10:29- You could find Anna sitting on her bed not sure what to do.
And that brings us back to the present...
For some reason this blog has turned into Anna's Favorite T.V. Shows? I don't know but I had to put this up, I just had to rant about this for a little while. Wanna know the saddest part of my life...I WON'T BE ABLE TO SEE TOMORROW'S EPISODE EITHER!!! :(
I am going to Nova Scotia tomorrow, I am leaving at ten o'clock tomorrow! So that means that if they don't have tonight's episode up before 9:15 tomorrow I won't be able to see tonight's OR tomorrow's episode, which will lead to a VERY angry Anna on this trip... It will also lead to an Anna who will be on her laptop at 1:00am when I get home tomorrow watching the new episodes online. *sigh* Degrassi...
Well I think I am going to end this ramble about Degrassi because I have gotten all that I needed to get out and my friend just called me. :) So tomorrow night, or early Wednesday morning I will hopefully put up a new update telling you all about my trip to Nova Scotia, including the FIVE hour car drive! I'll tell you all about it!
Bye for now! Peaceee! xoxo.
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Random ramble on CSI...?
I'm sorry, I just went on a random ramble about frickin' CSI, Criminal Minds and my obsession with t.v. nerds? I don't even understand myself...but this is what happens when I tell myself I have to update my blog and I have nothing to write about. But it's nice, to just write about random stuff, I know that none of this stuff is serious or anything but it feels nice to just get it off of my chest! Well that's it for now. Hopefully when I update next I will have something more important to say!
Friday, August 20, 2010
Simple Pleasures Prompt!
Prompt 95: List 31 simple pleasures. Every day for 4 weeks, write about one pleasure for five minutes.
The simple pleasure I'll be writing about is: Silence
Silence is something that none of us really think of, unless you live in a house where it never is silent. Where there is always someone screaming or a t.v. is blaring, phones are ringing. When the only time it is silent is when it is two in the morning and you are still up writing away on your computer. You get where I'm coming from? Unless you deal with this you never will understand the true beauty of silence, however I bet most of us have been in the situation where you are ready to slam your head against the wall for some peace and quiet. It happens to me daily. Sometimes you just can't take anymore.
Then there comes the time where everything around you is silent. It might be that you are home alone, or it is late at night and you are the only person insane enough to be still up. Whatever the reason is, silence is a simple pleasure. It is sometimes a rare occurence and whenever the noise finally quiets down I relish it. Who knows when it will happen next? So I close my eyes and just relax, let my mind drift...I enjoy it throughly because I know that the next thing I know all the noise will start back up and all will be back to normal.
Silence, I love it! At the moment however, I am getting none of it. I hear my brother and his girlfriend yelling at each other in the next room and I am trying to drown them out with my radio. Which in short, is not working. So it was a little hard to write about silence when I can barely remember what it is like.
Just a heads up, now that I am looking over the list I made it seems that it turned into 31 Things Anna loves. However I think that's okay so I will not be changing my list. :)
I hope you all are having a wonderful Friday!
Monday, August 9, 2010
New Prompts...
Prompt 95: List 31 simple pleasures. Every day for 4 weeks, write about one pleasure for five minutes.
This website has over 300 prompts for you to choose from, 346 to be exact, and all of them are different, creative ways to get you writing. Now, I saw the selection the had and I was floored, I didn't know which one to choose! So I randomly scrolled over number 95 and now I'm glad I did. I think this excercise will be a great way to recognize all the simple things in life that we all enjoy! It's a great way to stop being so vain and worrying about all the wrong things! Although, I might not follow the 5 minute rule. As soon as I start writing, it's hard for me to stop until I'm finished. So having a time limit to get what I want to say across won't work! So I decided to start this prompt today, hopefully I will be finished around the first of school and I will share a select few prompts with you! Today I think my simple pleasure will be...writing, because it is literally the simplest thing you can do. All you need is a pen and paper, or a computer. Plus, it's my favorite thing to do!
So, what about you? What are your simple pleasures in life? Something you enjoy to do with friends, by yourself or on a rainy day?? Comment and let me know!
Wednesday, July 21, 2010
"What we see depends mainly on what we look for." - John Lubbock
You can see the glass as half empty or as half full, they both mean the same thing but are from two different points of view; the pessimist and the optimist. Two very different outlooks on life. If you can find, in any situation, no matter how dark and dire it may be, a postitive outlook then maybe you're the one living your life right, not letting anything get you down. However, is that not a sign of naivety? Always the positive one? It's common in young children who do not know what is going around them to be the postive ones. Children take joy and pleasure out of the simplest of things, something I am afraid that you lose as you age. So does always being positive make you naive? Give you the air of a child-like innocent? Even if it does, is that a bad thing? Why should it be? Or are you the complete opposite? Always looking at things from the darkest perspectives. Maybe you are the ones who truly get it, your protecting yourself. It is completley unerstandable. If you don't hold everything up to the highest standard you will never be dissapointed. If you focus on the worst that can happened you will never be taken by surprised, never hurt.
So which one are you? Are you the pessimist, or the optimist? Or are you like me, stuck in the middle, confused?
What we see depends mainly on what we look for, or what we look at. It depends on our outlook on life. So, what are you looking for?